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This year has been a really shitty one.  My job, for most of 2012, nearly sucked the life out of me.  My hubby and I don't often get along.  We have money problems, my daughter has adhd problems, my health sucks, and my father recently died.  For the most part, with a few exceptions, I have few friends irl.  As a grown up, I'm supposed to be responsible and respectable; a good wife, mother and a woman with a career.  I'm under lots of pressure.  Most folks irl don't understand my love for K Pop.  They think I'm weird and that I need "help."

Being a "fan girl" is not an easy job as you all know too well, and it's much worse when you are older.  I enjoy "spazzing" with the rest of you.  I love drawing fan art, making gifs, etc.  I especially love writing.  I really appreciate those of you who are my faithful followers and always read and comment.  It brightens my day and makes me feel less miserable.

I know that most fan girls don't care for het, so when you tell me you like it, that's really saying something and makes me feel special.

The Unholy Trio is my "Magnum Opus" as it were.  Yes, it's long; and some of you have expressed your dismay that it's taking forever.  I'm not going to apologize.  This is the way it is.  I can't control the ideas that pop into my head.  Sometimes I write and post stuff that never receives comments.  I don't care.  Why?  Because I enjoy writing, even if it's for myself.  

Do you know there are nights that I can't sleep because plot bunnies, scenes and dialogue invade my brain?  Vivid images of hot, steamy sex scenes ( het and boys love) float through my mind; even when I'm at work.  It's maddening.

All I'm saying is, I hope that you understand why I do the things I do; why sometimes my fics are long, while others only a few chapters will suffice.  I hope that you will stick with The Unholy Trio to the very end, and that it won't disappoint you.

When it's over I may resume writing some of my lost fics that I never finished.  I'm also open to requests, as long as it's for a group I am familiar with.  I'll also take fan art requests and gif requests now that I know how to make them.

Once again, thank you for sticking with me like glue, I really appreciate it.
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I survived unscathed, although we had some power issues and my neighbors fence has taken up residence in my back yard.

In addition to that, my neighbors were at it again; this time around 6 am this morning; screaming and cursing as usual. Scott has decided that enough is enough. He's moving his big speakers upstairs and every time they start up again, he's going to blast Ride of the Valkyries.

I went to bed early last night because I was going to work for a few hours today.  I guess the neighbors screaming at 6 am started the whole thing.  I planned on updating my fic but I guess I’ll postpone that until tomorrow; going to play Pathfinder this evening.  I’ve also got a cool idea for a youtube video and I really should draw.  Maybe I need more coffee…

I'm looking forward to Yoochun's new drama, but I got a sneaking suspicion it's going to end in tragedy.

By the way, I've actually got a plan for The Unholy Trio.  I plotted out everything, so I actually know where it's going.  I want to thank you all for sticking with me and this insane fan fic.  It's been a rotten year, and writing was difficult.

Thanks for hanging in there.

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First off, thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.  My dad was buried on Friday and was given full military honors.  I have the flag and will display it proudly.

I tried the suggestions some of you gave me for using the link function to post my fics on other communities.  It seems to have worked.  Hopefully I did it right, and the mods of those communities don't have a problem with it.  

I promise I will update The Unholy Trio and possibly resurrect a few fics that were left in the air asap.

I will continue to draw and fool around with gimp and photo shop.

Here's my latest photo shop experiment.  Enjoy!

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I’m thinking about this Chun vs fan video and I may have hit the nail on the head ( or I could be wrong, who knows).

Follow my train of thought people.

You’re an idol.  It’s late at night.  You’re trying to get into your house.  You’re being prevented from doing so by crazed sasaeng fans.  Fans that stalk you day and night; fans that follow you around in taxi’s; insane car rides through the city streets at night that could potentially cause accidents ( remember what happened to Princess Diana?)

They crowd you; pushing and shoving; cameras in your face; shouting out at you.  Suddenly you are hit.  Instinctively you defend yourself by grabbing your attacker.


What would you have done?  Be hit?  Would you have defended yourself?  What if you asked the person to stop touching/hitting you and they didn’t stop?  

Is this really an issue of a man hitting a girl and it wasn’t right, even if she hit him first?

Sometimes I think people choose to discredit Chun because he’s got that “bad boy” reputation.  He’s the “greasy” one.

Well, what if it had been another member of DBSK?  What if gentle Yunho or sweet Junsu hit the girl?  What if it was Jaejoong?

Would you have been shocked?  Would you drop them like a hot potato and call them a douche or would you pull the “oppa didn’t mean it” card?

I don’t condone violence.  Men shouldn’t hit women.  Human beings shouldn’t hurt each other.

But if in fact she struck first, I understand his “knee jerk reaction.”  Is it ok for her to hit him, possibly injure him?  No.  

Did he kick her or punch her?  No.  If he had really hurt her, she would have had all the rights in the world to press charges.

This incident occurred 3 years ago.  I was in fandom three years ago.  I never heard one word about this.  I think if Yoochun had “assaulted” the girl, we would have all known about it.  Lord knows that whenever an idol is caught doing something bad, we all hear about it.

This whole incident was unfortunate.  It shows that some fans are mentally unstable and that some idols are ill-equipped to handle the pressure of fame and fortune.  I firmly believe that idols should have counseling and anger management.  I don’t know if they do; it was pointed out to me that in Asia, mental health issues are not discussed and kind of shoved under the rug.  I don’t know if this is true, but it was what I was told.

From early ages they train with the hopes of becoming famous.  Their lives, while envied by many, are quite sad at times.  A human being can just take so much before he or she has a melt down.

I don’t know about you, but if somebody slapped me, I’d slap them back.

You can take what I’ve said any way you want.  Maybe you think I’m defending Chun because he’s my bias.  But there have been lots of troubled idols and their fans have defended them.

Leeteuk, Shindong, Kangin, Kikwang, Daesung and Jay Park.  All have done or said something bad.  We don’t even know what Jay did!  Even Jaejoong had a dwi.

But their fans have defended them and stood by them.  

So what makes you think I should not stand by Park Yoochun?

Anyone who claimed to have been his fan but now say he is a douche and the “Chris Brown” of K Pop was never his fan to begin with.

At this point, I expect to lose followers.  I’m sorry.  However,  I know that many of you will stand by me.

This is just another attempt in a long line of attempts to discredit JYJ.

Sorry to burst your bubble antis and haters, but JYJ isn’t going anywhere but up.

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I don't know how I should feel.  Sad? Mad?  Ashamed?  I'm numb.  I don't know where I am going to go from here.  I discovered Tohoshinki in 2008, a bit late I guess.  It was during Mirotic that I stumbled across them.  As many of you know I fell hard for Yoochun.  But now, I'm not sure I can go on in this fandom.  I can only imagine how the rest of their fans feel, especially the Cassies.  I wonder if they are going to crack and do something rash?  My heart goes out to Yunho and Changmin.  I wish them happiness and love.  I'm not sure how I feel about Jaechunsu now.  I feel betrayed.  I guess until I hear an explanation from the boys myself I won't be satisfied. 

So here's what I'm going to do.  I will continue to check on Twitter and LJ for updates.  I still have interest in other groups.  I probably will watch Yoochun's dramas whenever they come out I guess.  But I don't know if I will do anything else DBSK related.  I had some cool ideas for fan fiction, but I'm not sure I will write them now.  I may even draw; but I don't know what.  I'll continue to follow ZE:A because I like them and I am in still interested in other KPop bands.  But DBSK was really the catalyst for my involvement, but now I just don't have the energy. 


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