I would like to explain something...

[onthethruway01]

This year has been a really shitty one.  My job, for most of 2012, nearly sucked the life out of me.  My hubby and I don't often get along.  We have money problems, my daughter has adhd problems, my health sucks, and my father recently died.  For the most part, with a few exceptions, I have few friends irl.  As a grown up, I'm supposed to be responsible and respectable; a good wife, mother and a woman with a career.  I'm under lots of pressure.  Most folks irl don't understand my love for K Pop.  They think I'm weird and that I need "help."

Being a "fan girl" is not an easy job as you all know too well, and it's much worse when you are older.  I enjoy "spazzing" with the rest of you.  I love drawing fan art, making gifs, etc.  I especially love writing.  I really appreciate those of you who are my faithful followers and always read and comment.  It brightens my day and makes me feel less miserable.

I know that most fan girls don't care for het, so when you tell me you like it, that's really saying something and makes me feel special.

The Unholy Trio is my "Magnum Opus" as it were.  Yes, it's long; and some of you have expressed your dismay that it's taking forever.  I'm not going to apologize.  This is the way it is.  I can't control the ideas that pop into my head.  Sometimes I write and post stuff that never receives comments.  I don't care.  Why?  Because I enjoy writing, even if it's for myself.  

Do you know there are nights that I can't sleep because plot bunnies, scenes and dialogue invade my brain?  Vivid images of hot, steamy sex scenes ( het and boys love) float through my mind; even when I'm at work.  It's maddening.

All I'm saying is, I hope that you understand why I do the things I do; why sometimes my fics are long, while others only a few chapters will suffice.  I hope that you will stick with The Unholy Trio to the very end, and that it won't disappoint you.

When it's over I may resume writing some of my lost fics that I never finished.  I'm also open to requests, as long as it's for a group I am familiar with.  I'll also take fan art requests and gif requests now that I know how to make them.

Once again, thank you for sticking with me like glue, I really appreciate it.

Comments

[devjacaiora.livejournal.com]

my boss think I'm weird too cause I like guys younger XD she doesn't understand that XD and freak when she know that I met with other fans younger at JYJ concert... she never gonna understand me for that but I don't care =D

even my friend doesn't understand that... I can't said nothing about Junsu cause she get mad... she said I think to much about them! lol

I got that problem too when my mind goes wild about Yoosu at night... except that I can sleep... with a big smile! LOL

I didn't read unholy trio at all cause if I remember write it's not Yoosu... but I'll stick like glue for sure =D

[onthethruway01.livejournal.com]

There's a little bit of everything in "Trio" but it's not a strictly "Yoosu" fic. Everyone has their preferences. When I first got into K Pop, all I wrote was Yoomin. They were my otp. Thanks for sticking with me in general.

[endless-purple.livejournal.com]

Although I've been rather slow and laggin when it comes to fan fics, whether it's reading people's (including your's) stories or even writing (it's been years since I wrote fan fics, but the plots are almost endless), I still admire you for what you have done & accomplished.

Yes, it's hard being an older Kpop fan. I'm in a similar boat with you as I'm dealing with parent's health problems, ongoing problems with my boyfriend & my obsession w/ Kpop, and so on. Also, whenever I go to Kpop concerts & whatnot, I feel old & wonder why I'm doing this when I'm almost 1/2 the age of a handful of fans these days.

I feel though Kpop has been my escape from everyday stressful life.

*Hugs* Just hang in there -K-. We'll get through all of this & our love for Kpop together.

♥

[onthethruway01.livejournal.com]

thanks hon; sorry you have problems. *big hugs*

[endless-purple.livejournal.com]

Anytime m'dear. ^^ Thank you as well. *Hugs*

[be-ddelusionall.livejournal.com]

why would people complain that The Unholy Trio is taking too long?

it's a fantastical plot and those take forever!

/loves it/

/loves you/

♥

[onthethruway01.livejournal.com]

You are a writer; you understand. Some folks are impatient. I didn't plan it this way. It's just the way it is. I'm glad you like it, that means a great deal.

[alivedaily.livejournal.com]

If writing is your passion, then keep writing. Please forgive us the readers who sometimes get greedy...since I discovered ff, I am continuously amazed of the talent brewing in this ff writing communities.

Write, write as much as you want and what you want, no matter, what us readers say. I personally am a greedy reader, for which I apologize, but please write for you, enjoy k-pop for yourself. There are many people who love k-pop like you. Those who keep making sour faces at our k-pop mania, most likely have their passions who may seem or may really be indeed weirder than our love for k-pop. What a freak is so bad in loving k-pop? We are liking real people, who live their passions, they are bubbly, beautiful, fun. Yes, k-pop has its problems, but that's a different story. I just hope that all the idol youngsters are safe an healthy, so they keep living their dreams.
I wish that 2013 will be better for you and all of us.

[onthethruway01.livejournal.com]

thank you so much!

[missvue09.livejournal.com]

The Unholy Trio is a great fic! Who knows? You may even publish it one day. ^^
I do miss your P.R.O.U.D.: From the Depths of Hell fic though. Hope you update it one day.

[onthethruway01.livejournal.com]

I must update that, and I will; that's a promise.

[roughmetal2.livejournal.com]

hang on there. sometimes, life sucks but there's always something to be thankful for even just small things. btw, you may want to check this site http://thesecret.tv and find inspiration in the stories and tools posted there. i stumbled upon it during the lowest point in my life and it really helped uplift my spirits.

just continue writing if it makes you feel better. and yeah, being a k-pop fangirl isn't very easy. i only had my daughter to spazz with before but when she passed away, there's no one around anymore to share my enthusiasm for k-pop.

take care always and hoping that after all these trials, you will be rewarded with more blessings.

[onthethruway01.livejournal.com]

I'm hanging in there; just feeling really down lately.