Jul. 22nd, 2013 04:45 pm
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I haven't updated any chapters yet because I'm dealing with a minor crisis in my home.  I thought I had a problem with mosquitoes, but it turned out to be bed bugs!  It's horrible and I'm covered in bites and I'm so itchy!  I haven't a clue where they came from.

So we are taking steps to get rid of them; throwing out my mattress, box spring and bed.  Using a type of dirt called diatomaceus earth which is safe for humans and pets but kills bugs.  I'm going through the arduous task of washing all my clothes and bagging them up for a month so my wardrobe is going to be quite thread bare for a while. Then I've got to thoroughly clean my room.  It's been a nightmare; sleeping on the floor/couch.  I still think we have mosquitoes but I can't worry about that now.

I write at my computer; I'm on my husband's while he is at work.  This just happened over the weekend so I'm going to be dealing with it for some time on top of all my other problems.

So my updates will come, I promise, just not as soon as I wanted them too.

Thanks for your understanding.
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Sitting here in the ac trying to draw Junsu but really guys, I feel like passing out.  Need to eat, take a  nap or both.  My hot water heater is still broken so I may have to take a cold shower and continue boiling water on the sink to wash dishes.  Life sucks right now, but I must soldier on.
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Just want to say that if I've been kind of quiet here it's because of several reasons.  To remind you that last year and this year has been pretty shitty. My dad died, I lost my job and my daughter's problems haven't gotten any better.  I've gained weight and I'm not happy with myself.  On the 4th of July, instead of enjoying ourselves my mom in law ridiculed us for not taking care of my daughter's problems and told us that if we didn't get her straightened out, that the only people she'd be able to communicate with is "white trash."

So you see my life is a mess so I sometimes forget to wish you guys well or wish you a happy birthday when it pops up on my home page.

I'm still here posting pics, gifs, art and fics. I've also rejoined omonatheydidn't.  You can follow me on twitter and tumblr if you wish, I seem to be there most often.  Just send me a pm for the url's.

I hope you and your friends and loved ones are well.

Feel free to pop in and say hello.

*hugs and kisses*
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OMG the temp agency I'm registered with says Freedom Mortgage has openings. I'm laughing so hard now. I wonder if they would take me back or if i should even bother.

In the meantime,

Big trouble
The cardiologist won’t see me without health insurance; I would have to pay up front and it’s astronomical, around 350 bucks I think. They are telling me to try the clinic at RWJ for charity care. I’m kind of pissed off because in April, I spoke with the doctor’s assistant and she said it would be ok, that I could pay the medicare price of 150. But I guess things have changed. Also, I can’t get the blood work done because I owe them money in addition to what the new blood work would cost.
onthethruway01: (schmutz)
Since I've been out of work I've been taking the opportunity to get this house in order.  It's no secret that my family and I are slobs; we've done absolutely nothing but make this place look like an episode of Clean House.

I don't like being out of work, but now there's no excuse for me not to take the bull by the horns and clear up the mess.

So far, I'm doing a pretty good job.

Tomorrow we bring Jess to a doctor for her psych evaluation.  We'll see what happens.

I owe you guys an update on my fic; I will get to it eventually.  Also, I've got plenty of plots in my head for other stuff.  If you have an idea for a one shot, send it to me.  If the spirit moves me, I will write it it.  Also, any requests for drawings will be seriously considered.

Ta ta for now!
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Just really depressed over losing my job.  I also screwed up my big computer, so it's back in the shop.  Hubby and I are fighting and my daughter is still having problems.  I've been in an artistic slump; haven't felt like writing.  I'm drawing again, but not K Pop; a cartoon for my daughter. We have managed to "connect" with each other over the new Transformer's cartoon, hence me drawing one of the characters for her. I spend most of my time on Twitter and Tumblr.  Lately I've been watching moving and tv shows on Netflix.

That's it.  Hopefully I'll be back writing and drawing soon.  Take care everybody.
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Just dealing with real world problems right now. I will try and update my story and draw.  I haven't done much of anything.  I'll catch up, I promise.


Apr. 10th, 2011 09:19 pm
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 I'm out of work but hopefully will find something soon.  I will be going on Unemployment in the meantime.

Please let me know if you hear anything about JYJ tickets in NYC.  While I'm really too broke to go, I'm going to try.  I've made a deal with Scott that if I can go see JYJ he can go on vacation by himself for a week.

I'm hoping we can make this work.

I will try and update all my fics and I have awesome ideas for new ones as well.

I hope everyone is happy and healthy.

Talk to you later!
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Just letting you know I'm still alive. All 3 of us have been sick. I haven't had any energy to do anything except post the occasional picture. I have 3 fics to finish (actually more, but I'm trying not to think about it)and art work to do. I'm also still looking for work although not as much as I should. The temp agencies aren't very helpful either.

As usual, my house looks like a bomb was dropped on it. That's another problem. We burned a fuse and can't seem to get it fixed so we have no lights on the porch and in the laundry room and one of my outlets in the bedroom isn't working either.

Our truck is for sale and we may have found a buyer. That money will go right to my Dad who pays the mortgage.

Hannukah was ok until we all got sick. It always seems that something always gets in the way of that holiday. We did it for about 4 days and then I gave up because we were out of money for presents (that's all the kid cares about, not the real reason for the holiday) and we were all too pooped and sick to care.

I'm worried about Christmas, too. I don't even want to think about it.

The only good thing about this cold is that I have lost 5 pounds. On another related note, I haven't had coffee since I've been sick, either. How is that possible?

I hope you are all well. Take care of yourself. Be talking to you soon.
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Just checking in with you guys.  Feel like ranting about life.  I'm pretty unhappy.  My money situation is bad and I can't keep up with my bills.  My job is ok, but the hours really screw me up.  Jessica seems to be having issues.  I don't know whether they stem from my lack of being home or something else.  She's been having lots of major meltdowns since I've gone back to work.

She had similar problems when I was sick last year too.  She's on medication, but I'm not sure it's effective.  We just can't seem to get her to be regulated.  I'm worried about her and her future.

In general I'm worried about all of us.  Obviously the money situation bothers me the most.  I hate not having money and not being able to provide for my family.  We can't pay our bills and it seems like I'm the only one bothered by it.  I'm so frustrated that I take it out on everyone.  The mail comes and it just piles up on the kitchen table and doesn't get looked out.  I am so stressed out I'm afraid to look.

For those who don't know, I was very sick last year and was in the hospital.  The stress got to me and I had a minor heart attack.  So now I'm on tons of drugs including anti-anxiety pills.  I guess that's why I'm afraid to get stressed out; I don't want to have a repeat performance, if you know what I mean.

I really am afraid to work full time, deal with the kid, the house and the bills.  Scott goes to school full time.  He can't work because Unemployment pays for him to go to college.  He gets very little.  Our friend Bill lives with us and he's a great help.  He does his best to cook, clean and help us with Jess.  He works occassionally, just not enough to help contribute to our budget, but he does give us what he can.

  The clutter in my home is also really bad.  It looks like a bomb went off in it.  I've tried to be neat, but it doesn't work.  All of us seem to have problems with organizational skills.  As many of you know, clutter can stress you out.

I'm also experiencing anger with myself.  I feel like I have wasted my life.  I feel like I haven't accomplished anything.  I know this is stupid considering I have lots more than others.  I have parents that love me (although I didn't always see it in the past), I went to college, got married had a kid etc.  but I still feel I haven't reached my full potential.

I need to sit down, re-evaluate my life;  what I've accomplished, what I am unhappy with; what I want to do with the rest of my life and what I need to do to make myself happy and reach my goals.

I want to thank you, my Internet friends for making me feel welcome.  As I have stated before, as an older woman involved in a fandom filled mostly with teenagers and college kids I get flack from those who don't understand.  You guys are like a family to me and I really appreciate it.

In the next few days I hope to state my goals, hopes and dreams.  I will share them with you.  I may not reach them all, but hopefully I will learn to live with disappointment if I can't accomplish everything.

As the Rolling Stones once said. "You can't always get what you want."

Peace, out!


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